oxford circus, langham place, all souls!
knightsbridge, harrods!
sermon this morning was about joy in this hectic, pressured world. well, the stress i’m facing now is not the same is when i have to look at my books or read my notes. it’s a rather weird stress. at the same time, i’m not sure whether i’m living a God honouring and fufilling life that Christ would want me to live. i am afraid that my thoughts are not in line with when he likes.
that’s a bigger stress. that’s the most important too. but i thank God because he has promised me this.. he would see me through every point of despair to the end of everything. i would definitely face trials in between.
it’s scary to know how protected we are in singapore compared to the londoners or should i say the west. our views and opinions have been conformed by certain influences and cultures. we are very very very naive in that sense. as a society, we have not been given probably enough time to see things from different aspects, to embrace changes and to understand why things are done in different ways. we are a compact society. now i understand why people want to leave, why they want to quit being caged in like caccoon. life for us is so structured and bascially organised to the point where we don’t have to think anymore.
even the media here write differently. the magazines are more straightforward truthful and. we are mellow in comparison.
when i first started talking to people, i think they thought i was weird or what. i spoke only when someone asked a question and only talked to reply a person. this was such a wrong thing to do. haha. I learnt the hard way that we have to be aggressive and opiniated.
i have also noted one thing. independence. or the lack of in in our society. we are many years behind time. we need to grow up. we all do. we will not be the laughing stock for other cultures. youth, like you and me must know how to fend for ourselves when thrown into the pits.
but, we have many good points such as filial piety which cannot be measured with any benchmark. haha. and also the family part. we live as a unit and what our family member does would affect us in a way. they are more individualistic like how i mentioned in the last post.
work has been manageable. the first week was spent on admin. haha. that was a nice way of putting it. i basically updated her outlook mail and did whatever small jobs sweeting, my boss’s assistant gave me. julie, my boss and also the HR head says i have to write a report next week for a welcome package for new comers joining the industry for singapore. i am looking forward. he is pure british by the way. so is julie
and to the raging hormones: there are no hot hot guys in credit agricole london, i officially announce! haha.lol. alright, maybe one or two, like this guy called carlos i think. heard he’s from columbia. you know, the usual dark and sharp features, curly hair, mesmerising eyes. but that’s about it lah. the receptionist, joy, whom i made friends with laughed when i asked whether she thought anyone was cute in the office. haha! she was like.. “no! don’t think the cute guys work in an investment bank.” there’s also this french who’s rather cute. but then again, my definition of cute is very different. i think lee hsien loong is cute. get it..?
i’m quite lucky that my desk(sweeting is the only other person in the same room, so there are two of us) is next to the kitchen..! my second favourite place. the coffee is tok kong. world class. two huge machines that dispense latte, cappuchino. mocha, expresso, etc. th foam is delicious and creamy, just like how you get in coffee bean. i drink like 5 cups of coffee a day.
the toilet is my number one refuge. its a lovely place to hang out when i feel lost, sad, scared, want to chat on the phone or just run away from reality. plus the scented molton brown hand soap is delicious. (:
avenue Q was funny but frivolous. haha. wonder whether they censored certain parts when they came to singapore a few months ago. i’m watching les miserables next week and hopefully the view from the bridge the week after.
the weather is also very very unpredictable. it could be cold in an hour and very warm with the sun shining the next. and sometimes it would rain out of the blue. wearing 2 layers is okay at times but sometimes not. i am confused myself.
alright, i could go on forever and ever. but i’m also too tired to continue.
goodnight, world.
